Liar Liar

desert-279862__180Lies. They are all around us. I read about little lies and completely astounding lies that shock me.

I have a family member that lies in this way. She lies about everybody around her and needless to say, she doesn’t sleep well at night. Her lies were believed for many years, but thankfully, many around her are realizing that things just don’t add up. I have my moments of frustration and tears when I can’t handle the lies any more about me. I can’t handle the lies any more about my family and other loved ones. I want to put an end to it and I have tried. The only thing it got me was cut off from them and more lies topped with more lies.

“I don’t know how you keep things straight any more. Yes, there are those that believe you, and there are those that don’t know you, and therefore don’t know any better than to believe you lie. I get calls and emails and messages telling me how they feel sorry for you because your lies didn’t bring me down. They didn’t stop my living and they didn’t stop my moving on from you. Your lies don’t own me, Jesus does. You think you have taken people from me, but you have only brought me closer to them and my God.”

eye-609987__180It can be a struggle, dealing with the never ending drama that comes with a person like this. I have my moments when I cry out to God wondering why this is happening and wondering how much longer it is going to happen. I believe I am an over comer and am praying for complete repentance for this person one day. I once asked my husband why it still hurts at times when I feel like I am totally over this betrayal. He told me that until this person either passes on, or repents, their behavior is a daily rejection of me. I have to fight lies and rejection!?

“I will continue to try to love like Jesus loves. I will pray for you and forgive you, but you have to change on your own. You have to be the person that God knows you can be. I can honestly say, I don’t really know who you are anymore. I’m not sure I ever knew you; the real you.”

Psalm 101:7 New King James Version (NKJV)

He who works deceit shall not dwell within my house;
He who tells lies shall not continue in my presence.

If you have a loved one that lies and manipulates, or does worse; they hurt people including you, don’t be like them. Fight through the hurts and fight through the lies. Fight through the pain. Fight for a life free of drama, even if it means that you have to let go of this person. With God, you can do this. I truly believe that God has allowed me to live this life with this family member, so that I can help others. I want to tell you to be strong and to understand that God loves you like you can’t even imagine. His love is unfailing. We try to put God in this little box so that we can understand Him better. When you cried over people and lies and those things that hurt you so deeply you could barely breathe, God was wiping every tear. He sees you. He knows you. He understands you. He made you.

You cannot lie and love at the same time. God is not a liar, the devil is. You cannot hate somebody and love God.

1 John 4:20-21 New King James Version (NKJV)

20 If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can[a] he love God whom he has not seen? 21 And this commandment we have from Him: that he who loves God must love his brother also.

I want to be in Your Presence, God. I want to love like You love. Help us oh God!


Use Me

bucket-and-spongeMy kids are always asking me (usually in a whiny voice!) why they have to do something that I ask them to do. They also like to find the loopholes in what I say as well. Maybe one day they will be accountants or lawyers! Anyway, I tell them they need to clean up after themselves. So next time I ask them to clean something, they let me know they did not make that mess and therefore, should not have to clean it. Then in my best Mom voice, I remind them that if that were the case, our house would be unlivable because after all, I don’t make that much of a mess. I also remind them that God asks us to work hard and do our best no matter what we do and how much we may dislike it.

Colossians 3:23New King James Version (NKJV)

23 And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men,

I believe there is purpose in everything that we do. If you work at a job you dislike very much, perhaps there is a purpose in you being there. I believe that no matter what we are going through, God is not shocked. God is omniscient. When I ask my kids to do something, I realize that they may not clean it as well as I want it to be done, but I am teaching them something. When they say, “I want to help. I want to do something.” I am more than happy to accommodate their wishes. They are very rarely happy when it is something they don’t enjoy doing.

In this same way, when we beg God to use us, how many times do we get frustrated when we get asked to serve in little jobs? I know I haven’t always had a good heart when it comes to doing things I don’t like doing. As we grow and mature in Christ, we learn to serve with a joyful heart. God asks us to do things like tithing and giving and serving with joy. When my kids serve and help each other without my asking them to, that is when I see their maturity growing. When I see them doing things just because, that is when I want to reward them.

Luke 16:10-12Amplified Bible (AMP)

1“He who is faithful in a very little thing is also faithful in much; and he who is dishonest in a very little thing is also dishonest in much. 11 Therefore if you have not been faithful in the use of earthly wealth, who will entrust the true riches to you? 12 And if you have not been faithful in the use of that [earthly wealth] which belongs to another [whether God or man, and of which you are a trustee], who will give you that which is your own?

podiumI think sometimes when we cry out for God to use us, we are actually asking for a platform. Use me Lord because I know I can preach better than this man or woman. Use me Lord because I know I can lead worship so much better than this person. We must be faithful with the little to get to the bigger things. How often are we frustrated because we don’t get to speak in church? How upset do you get when somebody else gets called on to do what you feel called to do?

Search my heart God. Help me to be a loving, giving, and joyful servant. Help me to work hard each day no matter what I am to do. I thank You for Your loving kindness. Forgive me Lord for all the times I have not had a pure heart and have not served with joy.